When
worry arises, worry. Hold it, watch it, but refuse to heed it and soon, you
will be ready to discard it.
Let us get this straight first – worrying
is not a sin! There is nothing wrong with worrying. Except that you know, just
as anyone with even an iota of common sense does, that worrying about a problem
cannot solve it for you.
Yet, don’t expect that you will attain a
state of no-worry. As long as there is your mind, worries will arise. After
all, what is a worry? It is a thought. And the human mind’s job is to churn out
60,000 thoughts daily. Some of these thoughts will be of worries and anxieties
pertaining to an unborn future. Will I have enough money? Can I resolve this
complicated legal matter? Will I find better understanding from my family? Will
my child get to pursue a career path she wants? Will someone with 4th
stage cancer make it? So on, and on, and on…your mind will lead you to worrying
– incessantly!
Now, those who have not trained their
mind, will be led by their worries. Which is, their mind will control them.
Worrying debilitates you. It will make you feel like a victim perpetually. But
those who have trained their mind – through the practice of some form of
meditation or “me time” – will find that their awareness helps them immensely
when worry arises in them. They will not fear worrying. Or worry about
worrying. They will simply see through their worry – their awareness will let
them allow their worry to rise…and then move on. This is the way they will remain
untouched by their worry.
A worry is like a wave. It has a limited
lifespan. Just as a wave rises and then recedes, and eventually disappears, a
worry too will rise and ebb. The problem comes only when you allow the worry to
touch you. If you just let it rise and fall, you will be untouched. Or the
better way to say it is that you will be unmoved even though it may, well,
touch you!
This is how I deal with my worries when
they arise.
For instance, I have this perpetual worry
that comes up in me every now and then. I have borrowed money from my parents.
My father is 77 and my mother is 66. I have been unable to return the money to
them because it has been over 8 years since our business has been going through
a bankruptcy (“Fall Like A Rose Petal – A father’s lessons on
how to be happy and content while living without money”;
Westland, August 2014). Resultantly, an already vitiated family situation has
become even more complicated leaving everyone bitter, embattled and estranged.
I often have to contend with the worry of thinking what will happen if my
parents die while I have still been unable to return their money to them? How
will I live the rest of my Life carrying the guilt of having made a lousy
choice of borrowing from them, failing to repay them – decisions that have left
my family in a fractious state? Yes, these worries arise in me. But I let them
pass. Each time such dark, numbing (today’s generation would term them
mind-f**king) thoughts, rear their ugly heads, my awareness, nurtured through the
practice of daily silence periods (mouna)
alerts me. Something in me immediately goes to work saying: “AVIS, steady.
Beware of the worry.” So, I perk up and let the worry come up to me, I allow it
to try its fear-infusing logic on me and, because I don’t give it any
importance, it simply slinks away. I do one additional thing. I say to myself,
every time I have to deal with a worry, “Let whatever happen, happen. It is
better we get down to solving a real problem than an imagined or feared one.”
This approach does not mean I am
irresponsible or that I advocate inaction. On the contrary, this is a call to
action. Constructive action. Because, worrying can nail your feet to the
ground. And the non-worrying state can never be attained. So, the best way
forward is to let each worry rise and fall – while you simply do what you have
to do. Principal among what you can do, or the most constructive action you can
indulge in, in the face of worry, is to trust Life. Just believe that if you
have been created (without your asking to be) you will also be cared for and
looked after. The energy that takes care of a million stars will
also take care of you. You need not carry the burden of the unknown future on
your head. You too can trust!
